A Shout-Out to WordPress

Dear readers,

I am not getting paid for this post… and, well, I haven’t gotten paid for the other 323 posts I’ve published on this blog either! 🙂 (A while back I shared about my non-salesperson status in a post, “Realizing (Again) That I Am Not a Salesperson!”)

Due to my homebound status (thanks to Fibromyalgia and an Anxiety Disorder), I am not working at a job, but I still want to be of helpful service to others, in ways that are doable for me… And writing helpful blog posts continues to be not only manageable, but quite enjoyable…

Blogging would not be so enjoyable if it weren’t for WordPress. It is so incredibly user-friendly. I am somewhat savvy with computers, and I don’t have much patience for sites that are not easy to navigate. WordPress is truly outstanding in that aspect.

I really love how WordPress sends out notification emails when people like and comment on my posts. And the tagline at the bottom of their emails is pretty witty-adorable: “Thanks for flying with WordPress.com.”

For those who pay for a WordPress plan, live chat support is available from “Happiness Engineers”… How cute is that? On that page, it says, “Our Happiness Engineers can answer any questions that you have about WordPress.com, how it works, and how best to use it.”

Well, since I’m blogging as a helpful service to others and making zero income from it (thusfar), I am not paying for a plan with WordPress, but because WordPress is so well designed, I have not even once needed to ask them for support. That says a lot, doesn’t it?

Thanks for visiting this online StarFire Temple of Happiness. I hope you enjoyed my shout-out to WordPress.

May you be bright, merry, and healthy!

With much gratitude and positive vibes,
StarFire Teja

 

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Offering Goodness

Dear readers,

After my Dad died suddenly on January 25th, for a while there was a rush of likes and comments on my Facebook posts, and I felt so supported and loved. That flurry of positive attention really boosted me up, but then, when it went away I felt deflated… And then, when even some of my closest relatives no longer replied to my emails, I felt abandoned, misunderstood, hurt, and confused about my writing path…

Well, a few mornings ago, my Mom, who is grieving the loss of her love of 54 years, was reading an article about a young boy, Juliek, who played his violin in a Nazi camp (documented by Elie Wiesel in his memoir, Night), and my sweet, sweet Momma said, listen to this, it was written for you, to inspire you to keep writing:

“And we, ourselves, play Juliek’s violin – when we offer ourselves, our full selves, to a work which goes unseen, to an audience unable to respond, even in the face of profound darkness, because the offering itself is lasting and good.”

Later that day, while lying down enduring some unpleasant Fibromyalgia symptoms, I thought, “What if I die in the next year? Have I done all that I want to do? Would I have any regrets?” Here are the answers that arose ~

~ If I die in the next year, I only wish that I would have chanted more.

~ I am pleased with the goodness that I have offered the world through my sons Zak and Gabe, and through writing books and blog posts.

~ I pray that my sons will enjoy offering goodness to the world in their own unique ways.

If you die in the next year, have you done all that you want to do? How have you offered goodness to the world?

With much love,
StarFire Teja

 

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Monday Morning Musings on Grief (Again)

 

“The edge of the keenest sorrow wears with time and perhaps Heaven’s kindest gifts to men are sleep for the fleeting cares of the day and forgetfulness for the deep-seated injuries of the heart.”
~ C. Rajagopalachari in his Ramayana

 

Dear readers,

Does that quote resonate with you?

From where I sit with my cuppa black coffee on this rainy morning, I’m not so sure what I think about that quote. Throughout my adult life, I have experienced pretty serious grief a handful of times, and those sorrows did get better with the passing of time (and a lot of crying)… But, tomorrow marks one calendar month since my Dad died, and this grief of losing a parent is a whole new level of emotional pain that I had not experienced before. It is just terrible, and it is difficult to imagine ever feeling better.

One nice feature of this blog is the search box… Last night I typed in the word “grief” and re-read some of my own posts about grief… (And I discovered that I had already written a post with the same title as today’s post, so that’s why I added the word “Again”, smiley face!) If you or someone you know is now grieving, these posts might be helpful so I’ll put the links here ~

~ “Protection Prayer When Grieving

~ “Riding a Grief Wave Successfully

~ “Monday Morning Musings on Grief

One of the stranger aspects of grief is the shock and denial stage. Over this past month, I find that I alternate between the cushion of shock, with thoughts like, “This didn’t really happen… He couldn’t have really died…” and the pain of reality with thoughts like, “His body is buried in the Earth… we will never see him in the physical again…” With regards to this musing, I must say that I much prefer the barrier that the shock provides. When I’m in the shock, the pain softens because everything feels unreal, fuzzy, numb, and even surreal. Even though, in the back of my mind, I know that he really died, the shock makes me feel like it is all a bad dream and soon I will wake up and my Dad will be here like before…

But I am intelligent, so I know logically that he is actually gone forever from the physical realm… Grief definitely muddles the mind! Can you relate?

After my Dad died I took a few weeks off from blogging, and when I returned to my great love of blogging I didn’t know how often I would post… Well, if you’ve been following this blog then you know that I have been posting daily (this is the 11th day in a row)… And I think I need to slow down the pace, because I am feeling pretty overwhelmed. It is natural to feel easily stressed when grieving, so that is why it is recommended to be easy on yourself. Great sorrow requires great self-love and tender self-care. So, I will still be posting here, but I’m really going to try to slow down the pace! 🙂

Thank you so much for reading my musings on grief today. I hope this post is helpful to you or to someone you love.

With much, much love,
StarFire Teja

 

Photo by Gabriele Ibba on Unsplash.

 

The Last Book

In my post on January 19th (“Maintaining a Balance”) I shared that I was going to take a few days off from blogging in order to re-read the books I published last year… Well, that same day my Dad went into the hospital, and later that week he had double bypass heart surgery which he did not recover from, and he died on January 25th.

During the week that my Dad was in the hospital, I had already finished re-reading my book, Reaching for Orange: Practices, Visualizations, & Blessings to Help You Happy Up Your Life, so I was re-reading my book, The Tejaswini Ramayana: The Way of Rama in the Shakahara StarFire Universes.

The week prior to that, I had written the following in my journal: “It appears that once again I have failed, because my books haven’t sold and the blog hasn’t gotten a big following… It appears as failure on the outside, but on the inside it feels like success because I really LOVE both books so much, and I really LOVE the blog so much! ~ When I re-read the two books and the 270+ blog posts, I feel so pleased and so proud of my work… My work isn’t successful externally/financially for many possible reasons: my health issues; my inability to effectively promote (“Realizing (Again) That I Am Not a Salesperson!”); karma; destiny; fate; astrology; and/or I am too fringe and/or too spiritual for this worldly realm… “It’s Whatever.” ~ My work is very successful and satisfying internally! Om Namah Shivaya, Jai Sri Rama!”

So, while my Dad was in the hospital, I once again really loved reading The Tejaswini Ramayana, and I visualized many people being elevated by watching it as a major film like Avatar

Then my Dad died… and the day after he died, my Mom told me that he had taken my book, The Tejaswini Ramayana: The Way of Rama in the Shakahara StarFire Universes, with him to the hospital… So, he and I were both reading The Tejaswini Ramayana during the last week of his life, but neither one of us knew that the other was reading the same book at the same time!

It was actually my Dad’s third time to read The Tejaswini Ramayana, because first he proofread the original copy prior to publication, then secondly he read the published book in order to write a review… Well, after he spent many hours writing a review on Amazon, it wouldn’t save and he lost all that he had written… And then the months of busy living flew by…

So, my Mom said that in December he was planning to read it for the third time in order to surprise me with a written review for Christmas… But he didn’t get around to doing it, so he was planning to write the surprise review for my 50th Birthday, which was on January 29th… So that’s why he had taken the book with him to the hospital on January 19th… And he finished reading the book that week, but he didn’t have time to start writing the review…

So! After a lifetime of being an avid reader and researcher, the last book my Dad read on this Earth was my book, The Tejaswini Ramayana. I am so stunned by that, and tears are blurring my eyes as I type this post…

As he read the book, he told my Mom, “She is a good writer,” and he made comments about what was happening in the fantastical story, such as “The blue beings are coming!” My Mom said he really enjoyed reading it, and I can tell the truth of that by reading his marked-up copy…

Last week I really loved reading his copy and seeing what he had underlined. I especially appreciated seeing all the comments and smiley faces and other doodles he had made in the margins! What a blessing, what a gift, for me to have his copy of my book!

The Tejaswini Ramayana is based on the ancient epic story from India, which I had been studying for nearly fifteen years… My version is quite fantastical, and my Dad was more of a realist, so a lot of his written comments questioned my “fantasy-based philosophy”… While reading his marked-up copy I enjoyed talking to my Dad and explaining my cosmic beliefs to him! It was the only spiritual connection I have felt with him in these long three weeks since he died… I am so very grateful for that little spark of magic during this difficult time.

I am pretty sure that Reaching for Orange is the last book I will publish… I am not sure what the future holds for me, but for now I still feel that my purpose is to be a happy spiritual helper shining the light through writing blog posts…

Thank you so much for reading this post.

May you be blessed in every way, every day.

I love you all,
StarFire Teja