September Slow Down

“You’re going to live to be a colorful old bird,” my beloved teacher David told me more than a decade ago. Those words resonated because I was born in a Chinese year of the rooster, and also because I love birds…

Thinking of myself as a colorful bird now, I can’t say that longevity feels like a blessing. While my wings are not broken, they are certainly not functioning properly. There is a huge gap between how I feel and how I would like to feel, and thus between what I can do and what I would like to do.

On March 10th I shared my future self visualization in the post “Your Future Self: A Visualization Practice.” I read that visualization out loud daily until just a few days ago when I realized that my “plans” and “goals” and “intentions” are not happening the way I imagined and desired, due to ongoing health issues.

As I shared in my post “Reaching for Orange to Calm Your Mind,” I was hoping for a diagnosis that would help me to better understand this body, so I went to see a new doctor. Well, I love my new doctor – she is really wonderful, and… she is referring me to a rheumatologist for the not-so-wonderful diagnosis of Fibromyalgia.

That diagnosis was not a surprise, because I had it in the past, but then I did a hypnosis program on myself and I was basically symptom-free for almost 3.5 years… Or was I?

Dear reader, have you ever suddenly realized that the stories you have been telling yourself and others may not have been true? Perhaps you just wanted them to be true? Have you ever experienced that sinking feeling of realizing that you need to face reality more honestly? If you answered yes to these questions, then maybe you will relate to what I’m about to share…

Sometimes a crisis, health or otherwise, functions like a truth serum. I am suddenly faced with taking an honest look at areas in which I have been in denial, such as denying how much anxiety I have, and denying how much impaired concentration I experience daily.

In doing this reality check, I am also wondering if I am really 97-98% healed of the trauma I experienced (as I shared in my post “The Helper Who Helps the Helpers”), or do I just want to be at that level of healed?

And so now I am even questioning if I really was Fibromyalgia-Free for almost 3.5 years as I claimed, or did I just want to be free of it? (Thankfully I did not publish the book I wrote about how I had healed myself from it!) Certainly I still continued to experience many symptoms and sensitivities during that time.

Sometimes we project out what we want to be true, rather than what is actually true. Have you experienced that?

Yesterday I did my month’s end review of my journal and calendar, and reflected upon the keywords I had set for August: Humility, Patience, and Peace… Well! Be careful what you ask for! I am certainly humbled by feeling sick for three weeks and having all my plans fall apart. As for patience, well, it just seems irrelevant to me now! All the striving and worrying and setting goals required patience, but now that I have no idea what is ahead, I don’t really even need patience. What will be will be, at the right time. I have lost all sense of control, so there’s nothing to be patient about. As for peace, I am feeling the peace (in moments) that naturally comes with being humble… so I guess my August prayers were answered, but not in ways I would have wanted or guessed.

So, dear reader, I am facing the reality I am in, and surrendering to my fate… and to my stars… Thus, my September keywords have arisen from the fog of this fibro flare: Slow down, Calm down, Enjoy the small things, Smile, and Cultivate a Sense of Humor.

My main intention is for September to be a slow down month for the StarFire Teja Blog, and in general.

I’ll end this post with a sweet little quote from Mother Teresa: “Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies.”

Thank you for reading!

What are your keywords for September?

 

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Rooster photo by Robert Baker on Unsplash.

 

StarFire Teja’s StarFire Friday Blessing: May You Be At Peace With What Is

 

May you have patience with the pace in which you are heading towards your goals.

May you appreciate each small step you take.

May your weekend be blessed with acceptance of what you cannot control.

May you be at peace with What Is.

 

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Sunset photo at the Ohio River taken by Teja (I can’t stop taking photos of sunsets!!!)

New Month, New Journal

Wow, I have really been going through the journals this Summer! As I shared in a previous post (“4 Helpful Tips for Looking for a New Doctor”), I have been dealing with some health issues, and when I don’t feel well physically, the combination of being an HSP (Highly Sensitive Person) and feeling sick makes me more prone to feeling overwhelmed. So during those times, I pull even further inside, and I don’t connect much with friends… Thus, I write a lot more in my journal during those times!

Can you relate to this? What do you do when you feel overwhelmed?

How was the month of July for you? Did you write anything down in a journal or calendar?

Yesterday I reviewed my journal and calendar for the month of July, and here are a few highlights ~

~ My mantra was “Calm Down & Happy Up.”

~ Lots of very happy days: feeling happier and happier in my new nun chapter!

~ Thunderstorms and fireworks.

~ Feeling really in alignment with purpose.

~ Realization: My main job is to be happy.

~ I really LOVE blogging… I keep hearing that quote, “Do what you love, and the money will follow.” (Marsha Sinetar) And, my Mom said, “Consider yourself a writer. Period.”

~ Realization: I am really fringe!

~ Super grateful for donations to my work!

~ Enjoying birdsong and bugsong.

~ Put a Sun on it, sunshine girl.

~ Full of happy!

~ Praying for inner peace. One day at a time. Do what I can each day.

So… Now I am looking ahead to this brand new month of August, and here are my keywords: Humility, Patience, and Peace. As I continue blogging and making visits with dying hospice patients, I pray to be humble, patient, and peaceful.

And, once I approve the proofing copy of my new book (arriving in the mail today!), I will enjoy promoting the book (Reaching for Orange: Practices, Visualizations, & Blessings to Help You Happy Up Your Life) and leading healing circles, while feeling humble, patient, and peaceful. I will really enjoy the work, while feeling Happy, Happy, Happy!!!

What are your goals for August? What are your keywords and intentions?

I hope you enjoyed this post.
Happy August to you! 🙂

 

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Reaching for the Stars

“Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.” ~ Harriet Tubman

What are you reaching for today? And what are you reaching for in your life in general? Are you reaching for the stars? Are you inspired to change the world?

When I think about how I would like to help change the world for the better, I often remember that Gandhi quote, “Be the change that you wish to see in the world.” That saying helps me to stay focused on doing my small part, right where I am today.

As for reaching… today I am reaching for coffee, reaching for goals, reaching for Orange, and reaching for the stars ~

~ Coffee = my liquid happy-ing up medicine, black as the dark night sky.

~ Goals = helping others to happy up through helpful blog posts.

~ Orange = a state of inner happiness that you will enjoy reading more about in my new book, coming soon… Reaching for Orange: Practices, Visualizations, & Blessings to Help You Happy Up Your Life.

~ Stars = StarFire Teja shining brightly in the world! After a decade of hardships, I am ready to enjoy life! I hereby take the prosperity vow, and I ask the Stars to bless me with wealth to support my ministry! My mission is to help elevate the human species to happier and healthier vibrations! I work for the Forces of Goodness!

So, dear reader, what are you reaching for today?

 

Orange Stars Image: Source Unknown.

 

Visioning for July 2019

Well, how was the month of June for you? Were there any significant themes or breakthroughs? Do you have a sense of what you would like to do and feel and experience in July? Is there anything you would like to change or update?

If you have been following this blog, then you already know that I recently began a practice of reviewing my journal and calendar at the end of each month, and then visioning some keywords for the new month. My primary keyword for June was Renewal, and I think I accomplished that goal. I do feel renewed and ready for a new good chapter ahead. Yes! The positivity bells are ringing! Can you hear them?

A couple of nights ago I saw a very bright star shining in the sky, and I spontaneously made a 3-part wish, and that wish has evolved into my keywords for July: to be Calm, Helpful, and Happy…

Calm ~ One of my dearest spiritual teachers, David La Chapelle (who left the earthly realm in July 2009), frequently assigned practices to help calm me down, and when he met my Mom he told her, “Your daughter is a live wire.” One of the consistent threads throughout my entire life has been an abundance of excitement energies, and since I have a highly sensitive nervous system, I tend to get over-stimulated easily, which often makes it challenging to get peaceful sleep. July is a high energy, fiery month where I live, so my intention is to focus more on calming down my system.

Helpful ~ It is my deepest prayer that these blog articles will be helpful to people… And I will continue being helpful through visiting hospice patients… And soon I will be publishing my new book, which I hope will be helpful to many people! (Reaching for Orange: Practices, Visualizations, & Blessings to Help You Happy Up Your Life)

Happy ~ In July this happy keyword for me is about attracting money. They say, “Money can’t buy happiness” which is true… But money can buy soap, toothpaste, and chapstick! This month my intention is to continue feeling the happy gratitude vibration for all that I have, AND to open to receiving more happy green energies (money)… so that I can buy some essentials, and so that I can launch the new book! (If you can contribute to my work, I will appreciate every penny so much: Donate)

As you reflect on your own month of June ending, and your month of July beginning, what arises for you? Do you notice any interesting thoughts, feelings, or sensations? What brings you satisfaction? What do you most deeply want? What can you do this month to work towards your goals? What can you do right now, today, to relieve any angst or discomfort?

Simply reflecting on such questions can really help you to shift into a higher, more open state of mind and heart.

Please share your July keywords in the comments section below.
I truly hope this post was helpful to you.

Happy July!
May All Beings Be Happy!

 

Red Lily photo by Didgeman on Pixabay.