The Last Book

In my post on January 19th (“Maintaining a Balance”) I shared that I was going to take a few days off from blogging in order to re-read the books I published last year… Well, that same day my Dad went into the hospital, and later that week he had double bypass heart surgery which he did not recover from, and he died on January 25th.

During the week that my Dad was in the hospital, I had already finished re-reading my book, Reaching for Orange: Practices, Visualizations, & Blessings to Help You Happy Up Your Life, so I was re-reading my book, The Tejaswini Ramayana: The Way of Rama in the Shakahara StarFire Universes.

The week prior to that, I had written the following in my journal: “It appears that once again I have failed, because my books haven’t sold and the blog hasn’t gotten a big following… It appears as failure on the outside, but on the inside it feels like success because I really LOVE both books so much, and I really LOVE the blog so much! ~ When I re-read the two books and the 270+ blog posts, I feel so pleased and so proud of my work… My work isn’t successful externally/financially for many possible reasons: my health issues; my inability to effectively promote (“Realizing (Again) That I Am Not a Salesperson!”); karma; destiny; fate; astrology; and/or I am too fringe and/or too spiritual for this worldly realm… “It’s Whatever.” ~ My work is very successful and satisfying internally! Om Namah Shivaya, Jai Sri Rama!”

So, while my Dad was in the hospital, I once again really loved reading The Tejaswini Ramayana, and I visualized many people being elevated by watching it as a major film like Avatar

Then my Dad died… and the day after he died, my Mom told me that he had taken my book, The Tejaswini Ramayana: The Way of Rama in the Shakahara StarFire Universes, with him to the hospital… So, he and I were both reading The Tejaswini Ramayana during the last week of his life, but neither one of us knew that the other was reading the same book at the same time!

It was actually my Dad’s third time to read The Tejaswini Ramayana, because first he proofread the original copy prior to publication, then secondly he read the published book in order to write a review… Well, after he spent many hours writing a review on Amazon, it wouldn’t save and he lost all that he had written… And then the months of busy living flew by…

So, my Mom said that in December he was planning to read it for the third time in order to surprise me with a written review for Christmas… But he didn’t get around to doing it, so he was planning to write the surprise review for my 50th Birthday, which was on January 29th… So that’s why he had taken the book with him to the hospital on January 19th… And he finished reading the book that week, but he didn’t have time to start writing the review…

So! After a lifetime of being an avid reader and researcher, the last book my Dad read on this Earth was my book, The Tejaswini Ramayana. I am so stunned by that, and tears are blurring my eyes as I type this post…

As he read the book, he told my Mom, “She is a good writer,” and he made comments about what was happening in the fantastical story, such as “The blue beings are coming!” My Mom said he really enjoyed reading it, and I can tell the truth of that by reading his marked-up copy…

Last week I really loved reading his copy and seeing what he had underlined. I especially appreciated seeing all the comments and smiley faces and other doodles he had made in the margins! What a blessing, what a gift, for me to have his copy of my book!

The Tejaswini Ramayana is based on the ancient epic story from India, which I had been studying for nearly fifteen years… My version is quite fantastical, and my Dad was more of a realist, so a lot of his written comments questioned my “fantasy-based philosophy”… While reading his marked-up copy I enjoyed talking to my Dad and explaining my cosmic beliefs to him! It was the only spiritual connection I have felt with him in these long three weeks since he died… I am so very grateful for that little spark of magic during this difficult time.

I am pretty sure that Reaching for Orange is the last book I will publish… I am not sure what the future holds for me, but for now I still feel that my purpose is to be a happy spiritual helper shining the light through writing blog posts…

Thank you so much for reading this post.

May you be blessed in every way, every day.

I love you all,
StarFire Teja

 

How happy?

“Most folks are about as happy as they make up their minds to be.”
~ Abraham Lincoln

Dear reader,

How happy have you made up your mind to be?

With lots of love and choosing happiness,
StarFire Teja

 

Red rose photo by Vlad Costache on Unsplash.

 

Sunset Reflection on the Ohio River

Greetings, dear you, from my happy coffee fun writing time… So, did you finish reflecting on 2019? How is day two of 2020 going for you so far?

This is just a short little post because I wanted to share this photo with you:

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Recently Pixabay accepted a few more photos into my portfolio (StarFire Teja on Pixabay), but for some reason they did not accept this photo, which was my very favorite one! I love how you can see the sun through the tree and also the sun’s reflection through the tree!

How do you feel when you look at this photo?

 

 

Happy Christmas from StarFire Teja!

Dear readers,

For all who celebrate Christmas, I wish you a merry time filled with warmth, love, and good cheer.

May this holiday time help you to Happy Up your mind!

With much, much love,
StarFire Teja

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Photo of red bauble on tree by Szabo Viktor on Unsplash.

 

The 3 E’s for Working With Your Holiday Emotions

So, dear readers, are you getting your Merry On during this holiday season? Are your nerves feeling frazzled at times? Are you noticing any difficult emotions surfacing or lurking around the edges?

Here is a simple practice for working with your holiday emotions, that I am calling “The 3 E’s” ~

~ Enjoy your happy, merry, cheerful, peaceful, joyful, expanded, and loving emotions.

~ Endure your agitated, irritated, overwhelmed, frustrated, angry, sad, and jealous emotions.

~ Embrace ALL of your emotions, recognizing that they are all simply energies passing through you… They are energies, which are triggered by endless seen and unseen causes! ~ Underneath, behind, and all around these energies is your pure beautiful Self! Embrace yourself as you are in each moment. Look in the mirror and say “I love you” to yourself…

Place one hand on your heart, and visualize healing green energies swirling and pulsing in your vibrant green heart center! Cultivate endless self-love during this holiday season… and beyond.

I hope this post is helpful to you or to someone you love.

With great love,
StarFire Teja

 

Photo of fir tree by Peggy Choucair on Pixabay.