I Want to Warn Others!

Dear readers,

It is with a certain degree of agony that I am writing this post. If you have experienced the death of a parent, then perhaps you can relate to my anguish…

If you have not yet experienced the death of a parent, I want to warn you! But what can I say to prepare you? All I can do is share my story and hope that it may be helpful to some people who read it…

My Dad died four months ago today, and it is truly the worst thing that has ever happened to me. At fifty years old, I thought I had experienced a lot of grief already in my life, but now I see that the griefs over unions-with-earthguys-gone-bad and the griefs over my health and financial issues were nothing compared with the grief over losing my Dad…

The pain is just terrible! But, in the days following his death, I received an overwhelming amount of comments and private messages from friends on Facebook, and that helped me so much. I printed out all of those helpful words, and I read them again and again as I sobbed. One friend, who had lost her father the year before, wrote, “There is nothing like it; It is cellular.” I could so relate, because I felt the pain in all of my cells, fibers, and bones!

Another friend, who also lost her father, shared that she didn’t realize how unbelievable the territory was. She wrote, “We can’t know until we arrive at it, that’s for sure.”

I cried so much during the first couple of months, while I continued doing all of my spiritual practices each day. Gradually I gained more inner strength and stopped crying so much, but still, every evening when it gets dark my “witching hour” begins and the questions and answers replay in my mind as they have hundreds of times before… The journey through disbelief, trauma, and shock is rocky, but hopefully I’m steadily working my way towards acceptance, healing, and peace…

One friend said that we don’t ever really get over the grief when a parent dies, but rather, it just becomes a familiar part of us… That idea brings me a strange comfort.

Fortunately I am by nature a grateful person, and I have a strong base of happiness in me… So, even during these terribly painful months, I have been able to create happy moments each day.

When the time comes for you to experience the death of a parent, I hope you will also be able to access the inner resources you need in order to love yourself through the pain.

With grief and gratitude in equal portions,
StarFire Teja

 

Grab the Wheel of Your Mind!

Dear readers, do you ever have dreams in which your car is going up or down a very steep hill?

Last night I dreamt that this exact same scene played out three times: I was in a car that was driving itself backwards up a very steep hill, and each time it almost crashed over the edge at the top I jumped into the driver’s seat and calmly drove it back down to safety!

Hmmm, I wonder what that dream means! Haha!

Is anybody else feeling out of control right now?

Are you having any interesting dreams lately?

Today I had a phone session with my psychologist (because “social distancing” prevented an in-office meeting), and she guided me in a wonderful hypnotherapy experience in which I turned down the levers that control anxiety and worry… and I turned up the levers for inner wisdom and inner courage.

My dear ones, may you take control over the only thing you can control: your mind! Through peaceful meditation, relax into your inner being and access your inner resources… Then grab the wheel of your mind, and drive yourself down to safety!

May you be calm, wise, and courageous during these uncertain times.

With a grateful and brave heart,
StarFire Teja

 

Photo by esudroff on Pixabay.

 

StarFire Friday Blessing: May You Light a Living Fire of Love

 

May you face changes with grace.

May you accept and bless everything that has happened in your life.

May your weekend be blessed with reminders of your inner resources.

May you light a living fire of love in your heart, in your mind, and in your whole being.

(The last three blessings are from my book, Reaching for Orange: Practices, Visualizations, & Blessings to Help You Happy Up Your Life.)

 

Dear readers,

Change is the only constant here on our sacred planet Earth, and yet, the kinds of changes we must face are always changing.

Change comes in many sizes, shapes, colors, and varieties! Some changes are exciting, while others are devastating. We have time to prepare for some changes, but others surprise us quite suddenly.

May you face your changes with grace.

And speaking of change, I have decided to let go of writing these StarFire Friday Blessing posts… After writing them weekly for more than one year, it is time for a change. Let us see what arises next!

With living heartfire,
StarFire Teja

 

Fire photo by Zoegar on Pixabay.

 

StarFire Friday Blessing: May You Anchor Resourceful States

 

May you appreciate that which moves you into higher states of consciousness.

May you access the inner and outer resources you need for your highest happiness.

May your weekend be blessed with an abundance of the highest love vibrations.

May you anchor resourceful states.

 

StarFire Teja’s StarFire Friday Blessing: May You Feel Elevated Moments of Pure Joy

 

May you be blessed with reminders of your inner resources.

May you attract everything you need to connect with your purpose and to feel better on every level.

May you pass through any dark portals into radiant orange light, with gratitude ringing in your every cell.

May you feel elevated moments of Pure Joy.

 

Today’s blessings are from the “Blessings to help with depression” section in my new book, Reaching for Orange: Practices, Visualizations, & Blessings to Help You Happy Up Your Life.

May your weekend be blessed in every way!

May All Beings Be Free of Suffering.
May All Beings Be Happy.

 

Photo of flowers and spheres by Teja.