September Slow Down

“You’re going to live to be a colorful old bird,” my beloved teacher David told me more than a decade ago. Those words resonated because I was born in a Chinese year of the rooster, and also because I love birds…

Thinking of myself as a colorful bird now, I can’t say that longevity feels like a blessing. While my wings are not broken, they are certainly not functioning properly. There is a huge gap between how I feel and how I would like to feel, and thus between what I can do and what I would like to do.

On March 10th I shared my future self visualization in the post “Your Future Self: A Visualization Practice.” I read that visualization out loud daily until just a few days ago when I realized that my “plans” and “goals” and “intentions” are not happening the way I imagined and desired, due to ongoing health issues.

As I shared in my post “Reaching for Orange to Calm Your Mind,” I was hoping for a diagnosis that would help me to better understand this body, so I went to see a new doctor. Well, I love my new doctor – she is really wonderful, and… she is referring me to a rheumatologist for the not-so-wonderful diagnosis of Fibromyalgia.

That diagnosis was not a surprise, because I had it in the past, but then I did a hypnosis program on myself and I was basically symptom-free for almost 3.5 years… Or was I?

Dear reader, have you ever suddenly realized that the stories you have been telling yourself and others may not have been true? Perhaps you just wanted them to be true? Have you ever experienced that sinking feeling of realizing that you need to face reality more honestly? If you answered yes to these questions, then maybe you will relate to what I’m about to share…

Sometimes a crisis, health or otherwise, functions like a truth serum. I am suddenly faced with taking an honest look at areas in which I have been in denial, such as denying how much anxiety I have, and denying how much impaired concentration I experience daily.

In doing this reality check, I am also wondering if I am really 97-98% healed of the trauma I experienced (as I shared in my post “The Helper Who Helps the Helpers”), or do I just want to be at that level of healed?

And so now I am even questioning if I really was Fibromyalgia-Free for almost 3.5 years as I claimed, or did I just want to be free of it? (Thankfully I did not publish the book I wrote about how I had healed myself from it!) Certainly I still continued to experience many symptoms and sensitivities during that time.

Sometimes we project out what we want to be true, rather than what is actually true. Have you experienced that?

Yesterday I did my month’s end review of my journal and calendar, and reflected upon the keywords I had set for August: Humility, Patience, and Peace… Well! Be careful what you ask for! I am certainly humbled by feeling sick for three weeks and having all my plans fall apart. As for patience, well, it just seems irrelevant to me now! All the striving and worrying and setting goals required patience, but now that I have no idea what is ahead, I don’t really even need patience. What will be will be, at the right time. I have lost all sense of control, so there’s nothing to be patient about. As for peace, I am feeling the peace (in moments) that naturally comes with being humble… so I guess my August prayers were answered, but not in ways I would have wanted or guessed.

So, dear reader, I am facing the reality I am in, and surrendering to my fate… and to my stars… Thus, my September keywords have arisen from the fog of this fibro flare: Slow down, Calm down, Enjoy the small things, Smile, and Cultivate a Sense of Humor.

My main intention is for September to be a slow down month for the StarFire Teja Blog, and in general.

I’ll end this post with a sweet little quote from Mother Teresa: “Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies.”

Thank you for reading!

What are your keywords for September?

 

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Rooster photo by Robert Baker on Unsplash.

 

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New Month, New Journal

Wow, I have really been going through the journals this Summer! As I shared in a previous post (“4 Helpful Tips for Looking for a New Doctor”), I have been dealing with some health issues, and when I don’t feel well physically, the combination of being an HSP (Highly Sensitive Person) and feeling sick makes me more prone to feeling overwhelmed. So during those times, I pull even further inside, and I don’t connect much with friends… Thus, I write a lot more in my journal during those times!

Can you relate to this? What do you do when you feel overwhelmed?

How was the month of July for you? Did you write anything down in a journal or calendar?

Yesterday I reviewed my journal and calendar for the month of July, and here are a few highlights ~

~ My mantra was “Calm Down & Happy Up.”

~ Lots of very happy days: feeling happier and happier in my new nun chapter!

~ Thunderstorms and fireworks.

~ Feeling really in alignment with purpose.

~ Realization: My main job is to be happy.

~ I really LOVE blogging… I keep hearing that quote, “Do what you love, and the money will follow.” (Marsha Sinetar) And, my Mom said, “Consider yourself a writer. Period.”

~ Realization: I am really fringe!

~ Super grateful for donations to my work!

~ Enjoying birdsong and bugsong.

~ Put a Sun on it, sunshine girl.

~ Full of happy!

~ Praying for inner peace. One day at a time. Do what I can each day.

So… Now I am looking ahead to this brand new month of August, and here are my keywords: Humility, Patience, and Peace. As I continue blogging and making visits with dying hospice patients, I pray to be humble, patient, and peaceful.

And, once I approve the proofing copy of my new book (arriving in the mail today!), I will enjoy promoting the book (Reaching for Orange: Practices, Visualizations, & Blessings to Help You Happy Up Your Life) and leading healing circles, while feeling humble, patient, and peaceful. I will really enjoy the work, while feeling Happy, Happy, Happy!!!

What are your goals for August? What are your keywords and intentions?

I hope you enjoyed this post.
Happy August to you! 🙂

 

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End of the Month Journal Review

Do you write in a journal, and/or keep track of things in a calendar? If so, you might like to try this simple practice that I have recently added in my life.

At the end of each month, sit down with your journal and/or calendar, and review what happened during that month. Take mental or written notes, while reflecting upon any themes, goals, insights, and achievements.

After reviewing the month that is ending, take a little time to look at the next month and do some visioning about what you intend to do, feel, and experience in the coming month. Tuning in to your deepest wishes, set 3-5 keywords for the month.

For example, for the month of March, I set these keywords: Acceptance, Forgiveness, Peace, & Grace, and for the month of April: Abundance, Wealth, & Health. Each month I felt that setting those keywords really brought those goals into a clearer focus, which then helped to actualize them in my reality.

I hope you enjoy reviewing the month of April. Please let me know how it goes!

May All Beings Be Happy!

 

Photo* is of my current journal cover. Back in the day, I used to purchase nice expensive journals, but in recent years I have discovered the joy of decorating the covers of inexpensive sketchbooks!

 

*If you are viewing this article in an email, simply click on the title of the article and you will be taken to the StarFire Teja Blog where you can see the photo.

 

 

StarFire Teja’s StarFire Friday Prayer: May You Feel Refreshed

 

May your mind and spirit feel refreshed.

May you be guided to look for the good and to be the good.

May your weekend be blessed with the radiant light of the sun, moon, stars, and crystals.

 

Have you noticed that your prayers and visualizations regularly need to be refreshed? You might attribute this to the internet information age shortening your attention span, but actually it is because your deeper mind and your highest soul both live in the present moment… And, the present moment is ever new! So your mind and spirit crave newness. That is why I regularly share new prayers and new visualizations with you here in these blog articles.

With your intentions, prayers, and guided imagery exercises, a good rule to follow is to do them until they feel stale or boring, and then change to new ones. How often you will need to refresh them will vary, so just watch how they make you feel as you say them or think them.

May this weekend be truly refreshing for you!

May you be blessed by the Forces of Goodness.

May All Beings Be Happy!

 

Please see follow-up article on March 3rd:
“Refreshing AND Deepening”

 

 

image Courtesy NASA/JPL-Caltech

 

StarFire Teja’s StarFire Friday Prayer: May You Feel Held By Something Greater

 

May your mind settle down and come to a nourishing still point.

May you listen to your body and lovingly give it what it needs.

May your weekend be healing, with moments of peace.

May you feel Held By Something Greater.

 

This weekend, take some time to nourish yourself on all levels: mental, physical, emotional, and spiritual.

Mental nourishment: To calm your mind, when you first wake up in the morning, spend a few moments setting your intentions for the day. Then, throughout the day, take a few minutes here and there to close your eyes and tune in again to your intentions for the day. At bedtime, quietly reflect on the day. Celebrate any small joys, and release any disappointments. Visualize your mind being filled with a calm, healing light that is nourishing every cell in your brain.

Physical nourishment: Did you know that your body is talking to you all the time? When you tune in to the body channel, you will hear it telling you what it needs. Perhaps it needs a little extra rest. Or maybe it needs a little extra pure water or a lot more dark green leafy vegetables. Visualize all of your 37.2 trillion cells being filled with warm healing energies.

Emotional nourishment: Take some time to reflect on how you process your feelings. Do you tend to brush them off and keep busy, or do you tend to over-indulge in them? In order to achieve healthy tendencies with the emotional realm, develop the habit of becoming the observer. As you watch any and all emotions flowing through you, practice allowing them to be just as they are, without trying to change them. And, at the same time, set the intentions that you are healing and that you are loving yourself no matter how you feel. Cultivate self-love, and visualize that love flowing out to all beings.

Spiritual nourishment: Perhaps you’ve read some of my past blogs with spiritual tips, such as “StarFire Teja’s Three Super Simple Spiritual Practices” in which I’ve shared fun ways to connect with your spiritual self. I am all about making spiritual practices do-able for people, because when you do spiritual practices you directly experience, in your body, what it feels like to know that you are Held By Something Greater. Visualize your entire being connected with every star in the sky, and imagine that the whole universe is vibrating and shining inside your heart. Allow that bright light to spread throughout your whole being, and then see it radiating out to all beings.

After your fantastic healing weekend, please come back here and share all about it in the comments below, down where it says “Leave a reply.”

And, to learn more simple spiritual practices, order a copy of my book, which is a magical new version of an ancient tale from India called the Ramayana. Before I begin the fantastical story, I offer a section called Radiance Rising, which is an extensive list of spiritual practices. You will love this book! Please order it today on Amazon: The Tejaswini Ramayana: The Way of Rama in the Shakahara StarFire Universes.

May All Beings Feel Held By Something Greater.
May All Beings Be Happy!

 

image Courtesy NASA/JPL-Caltech