Offering Goodness

Dear readers,

After my Dad died suddenly on January 25th, for a while there was a rush of likes and comments on my Facebook posts, and I felt so supported and loved. That flurry of positive attention really boosted me up, but then, when it went away I felt deflated… And then, when even some of my closest relatives no longer replied to my emails, I felt abandoned, misunderstood, hurt, and confused about my writing path…

Well, a few mornings ago, my Mom, who is grieving the loss of her love of 54 years, was reading an article about a young boy, Juliek, who played his violin in a Nazi camp (documented by Elie Wiesel in his memoir, Night), and my sweet, sweet Momma said, listen to this, it was written for you, to inspire you to keep writing:

“And we, ourselves, play Juliek’s violin – when we offer ourselves, our full selves, to a work which goes unseen, to an audience unable to respond, even in the face of profound darkness, because the offering itself is lasting and good.”

Later that day, while lying down enduring some unpleasant Fibromyalgia symptoms, I thought, “What if I die in the next year? Have I done all that I want to do? Would I have any regrets?” Here are the answers that arose ~

~ If I die in the next year, I only wish that I would have chanted more.

~ I am pleased with the goodness that I have offered the world through my sons Zak and Gabe, and through writing books and blog posts.

~ I pray that my sons will enjoy offering goodness to the world in their own unique ways.

If you die in the next year, have you done all that you want to do? How have you offered goodness to the world?

With much love,
StarFire Teja

 

Photo by K. Mitch Hodge on Unsplash.

 

Facing My Blogging Reality

Dear readers,

With just two days left in 2019, how are you feeling about the goals you were reaching towards this year? I’m a bit embarrassed to admit this to you, but one of my “stretch” goals for the year was to attract 19,000 blog followers. (At least I can’t hear you laughing now!) 🙂

Well, I didn’t exactly make that goal… But, I am truly grateful for the 133 people who are following the StarFire Teja Blog today… And yesterday’s post was my 250th post this year, so I celebrated that achievement by going back through and reading all of my posts… And I have to say, I feel quite pleased with my work…

And, in looking through my binder of blog post ideas, I came across the inspiration for today’s post: an article written by Christian Mihai on The Art of Blogging back in August, entitled “Why No One Reads Your Blog (and What to Do About It).” After reading that post, I decided that I needed to face my blogging reality…

… And the reality is, I am not putting in the amount of hours of work that it would take to have a successful blog. The main reason is the same reason that I have failed at numerous career attempts over the years, and that is the debilitating symptoms of Fibromyalgia slow me down and prevent me from being able to work at the levels of time and energy that I would otherwise be capable of…

… And, a secondary reason is the same secondary reason that I have failed at so many past endeavors, and that is I do not like marketing, promotion, and sales. Please see my previous post, “Realizing (Again) That I Am Not a Salesperson!” In that article I wrote that as I face the reality of this body’s limitations, I am finding that writing is what I can do… I work for the Forces of Goodness and I have good intentions to be helpful with blog posts, even if I don’t have the mojo to promote them widely and well!

In my post “Defining Your Purpose” I shared that chronic illness and not being able to work is seriously challenging my sense of purpose, but I am determined to master this situation and to somehow be of service to others. And, I am doing all that I can, so perhaps this blog will not ever get much bigger… unless by some miracles!

So, dear readers, I am shifting the focus of the StarFire Teja Blog to being a blog of service, without the “stretch” goal of expanding its reach… I will continue writing because it is fun and because it is helpful to a few people… In 2020 I won’t be trying for any specific goals, but rather I will just be writing with the intent to be helpful.

As a spiritual helper on a mission to help elevate the human species to healthier and happier vibrations, my promise to you is that every day I do practices to happy up my life, and I will continue to share helpful tools and insights to help you to also happy up your life.

Thank you for reading the StarFire Teja Blog!

Let’s Happy Up Together in 2020! 🙂

With gratitude and loving-goodness,
StarFire Teja

 

Defining Your Purpose

“Could this be one way of saying what our purpose on earth might be: To give my whole self, attention, good cheer, and desire to do what is right and good into the stream of life for the service of others? What purpose in life helps me to get up each morning and move into my day?”
~ Sister Jane McConnell, O.S.F., in her book Daily We Seek You: Reflections and Prayers for Individuals, Caregivers, and Ministry Teams

 

Dear readers,

How do you define your purpose? Has your sense of purpose changed throughout your life?

On August 10th in my post “The Helper Who Helps the Helpers” I shared that my current roles were blogger, author, and hospice volunteer. Well, shortly after writing that I had to take a leave of absence from the hospice volunteer work due to the Fibromyalgia flare-up, which is still going on. Dealing with chronic illness and not being able to work is seriously challenging my sense of purpose! So I am asking this question: “What is my aspiration and purpose, now and next?”

For now, I am still a blogger and author, but I need some income!* As a spiritual helper, I work for God and for the Forces of Goodness, and as Sister Jane wrote in the reflection above, I desire to “give my whole self, attention, good cheer, and desire to do what is right and good into the stream of life for the service of others.”

Given my physical limitations and ongoing challenges with accepting things as they are now, it is hard for me to get up in the mornings feeling good cheer, but I am determined to master this situation and to somehow be of service to others.

Do you wake up in good cheer? What purpose helps you get up each morning?

I hope you found this post helpful…

With much love,
Teja

 

* If you are able to make a contribution to my writing work, I will be so grateful. Here’s the link: Donate.

 

Photo by Melanie Kreutz on Unsplash.